Trains and lightbulbs...

I get it. I really get it. I know that I am not in control of what is happening and I have accepted that (as much as I can, at least). So far, I thought that was it. I thought now I have to deal with all this, poor me, I have no choice. What I didn’t realize is that I am in control. Not in the sense of controlling what is happening to me, but very much so in how I respond to the situation. I do have control over my thoughts and that is what I have to change. As you may have figured out by now, I really like quoting quotes. This one changed it all for me, As soon as you accept the idea that you are in control of your thoughts you will be able to create your own happiness. - Lucy MacDonald. There you go, how easy was that?

So, I will not continue to play the “why me?” card. I will not allow the “negative thought trains” (thanks, Julie!) into the train station that resides within my head. I will take control of my thoughts by being aware of what trains enter and which ones are banned from the station for bringing trouble. This is what will help change my attitude. Most of all, I will have faith. This situation may be out of my hands, but I am putting it in the hands of somebody much bigger and stronger than me – and that feels good.

I guess you can’t believe that it took me almost 30 years to figure out that I have been in control of situations since the beginning. I just couldn’t see the forest from the trees (there I go again). Well, I never said I was a fast learner. Like any other stubborn person out there, I have to figure things out my own way, on my own time. Only then will I have what Oprah calls, the light bulb moment!

By the way, I have had a little more bleeding, but it is considered "old" blood because of the color. The Doctor says that this blood needs to either be reabsorbed by my body or come out. According to the Doctor, it is great news that it is not fresh blood. Guess it must be me shedding the "old" me and my negative thoughts...

Much Love....Linds